“Perhaps the deepest reason why we are afraid of death is because we do not know who we are. We believe in a personal, unique, and separate identity — but if we dare to examine it, we find that this identity depends entirely on an endless collection of things to prop it up: our name, our “biography,” our partners, family, home, job, friends, credit cards… It is on their fragile and transient support that we rely for our security. So when they are all taken away, will we have any idea of who we really are?

Without our familiar props, we are faced with just ourselves, a person we do not know, an unnerving stranger with whom we have been living all the time but we never really wanted to meet. Isn’t that why we have tried to fill every moment of time with noise and activity, however boring or trivial, to ensure that we are never left in silence with this stranger on our own?”
Sogyal Rinpoche, The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying


I lost my grandmother a year ago. It was quite unexpected and though she made it to the ripe-old age of 87, the whole experience hit me like a ton of bricks. Her death was the first real experience I had with death and facing mortality all together. How could someone who watched me grow up, buckled my snow boots, and gave me all the little treasures and goodies in her purse, just all of a sudden, be gone? Cease to exist. As she was in the hospital, nearing the end, slowly needing to be put on life support, I had these intense sensations. I was driving home alone in the dark, on Highway 1, heading back down to Big Sur where I was living, and I felt this energy in the car. It was as if there was a ‘presence’ in the car with me. Undeniable. This is how I knew, this was the real deal. A bi life change was about to happen. All these messages and thoughts came FLOODING. Guidance about how this would be a huge transition and change for my mother and mark a new chapter in life. She encouraged me to continue playing my ukelele, and I will never forget the words that I heard in that moment, clear as day. “Keep Shining”. 

This book has helped me come to terms with death and what it means to pass on. I hope it helps you too.

Sonima Foundation


Sonima Foundation launch event, RCSD – East Palo Alto from Shannon Mayock on Vimeo.

“The Sonima Foundation is a non-profit public corporation and is not organized for the private gain of any person. It is for educational and charitable purposes.

The specific purposes of the corporation are to research, investigate, analyze and implement ways to provide health and wellness best practices, primarily to underserved students from preschool through high school; to provide the results of such investigation, research, analysis and implementation to the general public; and to encourage the general public to consider, discuss, and comment upon such results and to make other proposals for such consideration, discussion, and comment.”

-Sonima Foundation Website

Institute Of Noetic Sciences (IONS)


“The Institute of Noetic Sciences serves an emerging movement of globally conscious citizens dedicated to manifesting our highest capacities. We believe that consciousness is essential to a paradigm shift that will lead to a more sustainable world. We encourage open-minded explorations of consciousness through the meeting of science and spirit.” – About Us, IONS Website

For more information, visit here.

“What is outside is also inside; and what is not outside man is not inside. The outer and the inner are one thing, one constellation, one influence, one concordance, one duration… one fruit” 

-Robert Moss, DreamGates




Am i being stubborn and prideful? Holding on to this city like a frayed purse string , hoping to ‘make it’, figure something out.. all at the expense of my mothers tiny income being wasted away at my seemingly endless dalliances.

How do we know what to do upon graduation? We’re young, we’re horny, we’re like fresh little seedlings that have just praire-dogged our curious little minds into the nature of existence. But how long does this ‘figuring’ out time last? 

How long do we sit here, hoping for a miracle? Doing the work.. but still similarly confused. 

Human Brain Project

hpb“Understanding the human brain is one of the greatest challenges facing 21st century science. If we can rise to it, we can gain profound insights into what makes us human, build revolutionary computing technologies and develop new treatments for brain disorders. Today, for the first time, modern ICT has brought these goals within reach. ” -Human Brain Project



Relaxation Tea

blue lotus

Blue Lotus & Lavender: Good For Relaxation and Sleep. Also, an aphrodisiac. Cleopatra drank Blue Lotus Wine before going to bed with her lovers each night. It creates a Euphoric and Relaxing Sensation. It’s been said to help with reaching higher levels of consciousness. It has been said to be a Sleep-Aid and help with Anxiety. Lavender is known for its soothing effects and helps to bring about a sense of calm. Together, this blend is perfect for before bed or winding down the night.

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Wonders That Are